I put one foot on the sidewalk waiting for something to change, but nothing happened. Typical.
I started walking faster and faster, as if that way would leave behind the confusion they really did nothing to cling to my leg like a tick. The drops falling from the sky mixed with that slipped from my eyes and with the storm that stirred within me. I was afraid of drowning, but continued without stopping. I stopped to buy chocolate and cigarettes to fill a bit of trash comforting. And how deluded I was to leave the store to the street with the same vain hope that something will change. Nothing can control my feelings or my acting when I was blind, just stumble over and over again, without exception.
When was it started to crumble? kept repeating that question, millions of times in my head, still moving inertially. When was that removed the first brick, I did not realize?.
perception I had failed, and was the first time I had. It was also the first time that I failed the indifference, poise, inconstancy and sensitivity that stupid, stubborn to the unbearable. Why? if I had done so well. I had turned the scheme at 180 degrees, and now, the wind pushing the body heavy with moisture, the internal compass was broken to pieces.
